To Be or Not to Be...

They say that I should change myself, to be a better man. To correct some of my weak point, to be better than myself.

There's nothing wrong with that thoughts. But I wonder, is it really wrong to be just myself. I like to joke around. I like to tell some funny stuffs (or unfunny to some others). I try to use them to make others notice...maybe sometimes I do go overboard...but I usually avoid hurting others with it.

And then some say, I should probably stop that. The joking stuffs make other people harder to take me seriously. I guess that's true. Many people will probably think I'm just an empty dude, think of nothing, not serious, a serious joker who can do nothing

Or maybe I'm overstating that.

Well, it may be easier if I can change to another ideal person. But that won't be me. But being me, means I will always have unnecessary troubles to think of, and forever will be 'that kind' of guy...

But that's me. I'm just being me...

Is that wrong? Probably, you might say you can change for the better.

But what if I can't? What if it's part of me?

Should I change myself so others can like me better? Or just wait for someone to understand me?

Whichever path brings only pain....unnecessary pain.

I just wish I can stop thinking of it. Of everything. Really tired of it....

To be or not to be...

First Day of Exam

So this is the very first day I had exam here. As a first time, it didn't go so well. I thought I was quite prepared. Guess not. I used the wrong strategy and wasted too much and I could not complete the paper. Sigh. I think I can pass. I hope I can pass...

Well, just have to work hard for the following subjects!

Cameron (One Day) Trip

I don't know how it happened. My classmates, Vincent and Kheng Seng came for chit chat and then suddenly we decided to make an one day trip to Cameron Highlands. I was like WTF!?. But anyway, everyone went along.

We used the old road, which according to the classmates, are more far in distance. We stopped at a waterfall in the middle of our journey. We took few pictures there. The water was really refreshing. Not to mention the slippery floor. I fell down as a result. Luckily my hp are ok...



Then we reached Cameraon Highland at around 5pm. It was late and most of the shops were closed. There goes our plan to visit the tea farm, strawberry farm and butterfly farm. We still managed to get us some strawberry ice cream though. It's delicious.


We had steambot for our dinner. For a RM13 per person price, I was expecting less food. To my pleasant surprise, there were like a tons of food. You know what I like about Cameron Highlands? The environment there was cool. We barely sweat at all while eating steambot. I also bought some souvenirs back home too...There's strawberry tea, Rose Tea, Chocolate etc...

Overall, a nice trip. I want to visit there again, hopefully this time we stay over night, and get to visit all the places...

Road Trip

Man, this road trip back to Kampar was really something else. What happened? The front car tyre suddenly burst!!! We were at the middle of the road and luckily nothing bad happened. It's quite scary now to think of it. Anyway, we had to park our car on the road side and changed the tyre ourselves. Eventually we headed to Taiping to get a spare tyre. We only reached home at 9pm. That definitely breaks the record.

I think I will skip the part where I complain about Kampar again. Sigh. Well...there's nothing much else to say. Goodbye for now

Coffee Island

Well, it was a rather uneventful trip back to Penag this time. I spent sleeping throughout Friday and Saturday. I was trying to enjoy myself before the exam, but felt rather headache this few days. At first wanted to find Vince for a movie or dinner or something, but too bad he's busy. Bought 2 comics again. Man, I always spent money when back here.

Luckily, Sunday was a better day. KKK is back in Penang and we went out for supper just now. I actually wanted to go to Star Bucks to try the Black Berry Frapuccino (or something like that). Too bad KKK has financial crisis. So we went to the Coffee Island in Gurney Drive instead. The coffe house has opened for quite some time but I haven't try it yet.

Overall, the atmosphere was pretty good. Outdoor coffee house, a lot of customers actually. And it seems there's indoor too, but not sure if it's open for all customer. The price of the food are quite reasonable. I ordered one Macademia Espresso for RM5.50, and some butter kaya bread (RM1.80 I think) and French Fries (RM5). Quite ok, the espresso tasted good enough. KKK said it was too bitter, but I think it was just nice, bitterness shows the bitterness of life afterall^^

We had few talks about life and stuffs and went driving around. Man, Penang sure is a nice place. Tons better than Kampar!!!

I'm going back tomorrow. And the exam is next week. After that I can finally go home!!! Just weeks to go!!!

Sometimes It Rains In Heart

Thanks to the incident yesterday, I had a pretty bad sleeping experience last night. I woke up then and then to check on the window, getting paranoid...Stupid f*cker!!!

Miraculously, it doesn't rain tonight. How surprised I am. But unfortunately, apparently the rain pours inside my heart, instead onto this world.

I don't know when it happened. I don't know how I let it happened. I don't even know why it has to happen to me again. Why do I feel people are distancing from me the longer we know each other? How does everything change so fast? It's like few days ago we are talking a lot and doing stuffs and suddenly we are like strangers...

Maybe I did something wrong. Maybe I think too much as usual.

What if it's true? What if I push people away the more they know me? I'm really that annoying? That bad? Or am I just imagining things?

I wish I was back at KTAR times, where I can go home after school, instead of here. Then, I can avoid getting closer with others and getting hurt. At least in Penang, I still have some place to go to...I still can look at the sea, I can still buy my figures...I can let out all my sadness.

I feel empty now. Probably going to get a beer or something....see you soon

I Hate Thief!!!

What the hell happened? I woke up and my wallet was found near the window, and all the money inside gone!?

I thought I was being careful. But apparently the thief was smarter. He or she used one long stick, glued one shirt hanger on it, and took my wallet away while I was fast asleep. Luckily my IC and bank cards are still there. Now I curse that stupid f*cker to get hit by an aeroplane or ran over by freaking cement mixer or something.

I just hate this. Destroy my good mode. STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID

Now there better be some good things that will happen to me soon, because recently only bad things happen to me. Come on man!!!!

The Art Of Eating

Runny Nose is still not well, and it seems that I have difficulties controlling my appetite :D


The story is, Sushi King has the RM2 promotion now. Yesterday, I went to Sushi King with my 3 of my housemates. There was a long que, and we had to wait for an hour before we were allowed inside. It seems that Sushi King has an One-Hour rule for this special promotion. Also, they only made those expensive sushi (Originally RM6, such as scarab etc) at the last minute. That was very smart of them. Overall, we enjoyed our meal and had a full stomach that day. Spent a total of RM80, that's like 33+ plates of Sushi! Luckily there's Tesco for us to walk walk around and burn all the extra fat :D

I had Nasi Lemak today for dinner. Man, I couldn't control myself. At this rate, how will my runny nose recover? T.T

Warmth X Coldness

As per usual Kampar weather, it has to be raining...

Last night the KTAR group came to visit us and the school for their studies info. And they went back this noon. Man, last night was quite fun. Everyone gambling till late night 4am. Luckily I didn't lose much nor win much. Gambling is indeed a dangerous habbit.

So speaking back today, I am sick. Caught a flu, probably thanks to the rain during the KL trip. It's nothing actually, just feel annoying with the running nose, and using tissue papers like no tomorrow. Plus, my voice change. Kinda sexy if you ask me :D

My good housemate actually cooked porridge for me. Man, it was so nice of her. Thanks ya!

But still, now I don't know why feel left out again when they are talking. I guess it's normal to feel out of place once in a while. I have been thinking of a lot of things lately, and maybe it has quite an impact on my loneliness-feeling (trade marked) again....

I will try to sleep early now. Here's hoping I will get better. Although I don't mind to keep that special voice :p

One Day Trip

Insane

That's what I call this day. And I'm writing this entry with sheer will power alone :D

The whole house (except for one) went to KL today for some visit purposes and also enjoying ourselves. We visited Lowyat Plaza, Time Square and Sungai Wang Plaza. Man, these shopping complexes are HUGE!!! Take Time Square for example, it's like 2 or even 3 times the size of Queensbay Mall!

We travelled by KTM at 5am and reached there by 8 am. We spent all the day walking around. Now I feel that my leg is gonna break ^^. The visit to Petaling Street was an interesting one. Damn crowded and everyone was like 'potong harga' like crazy. I scored my first potong kill here, RM25 Nike Cap to RM10. Just in time for the rain actually :D



It was one of my housemate's birthday today and I had made a little surprise for her too, although her reaction wasn't what I expected. A bit disappointed actually. Oh well, hope she will happy and like the present.

And here's hopong another housemate can get over her problems as well

And I can get over mine :D

I'm really tired now and I have to go to bed. KL is fun, but it still gives me the creeps with those fast walking crowds...

Nitezzz

Rain = Bad Mood?

I guess there's a certain degree of truth about it, since I and few housemates were feeling really down these few days. Haih. How I miss Penang. If I'm in a bad mood, I can always go to many shopping centres for shopping spree, or go to look at the sea...But here, there's no where to go to....

Oh yeah, I was barred from QT II examination on Tuesday. The Utar admin called and I got the shock of my life. Seriously? Barred? Impossible

And then the rest of my housemates (we study in the same class) received their calls as well. Needless to say there's a serious mistakes there. And so we went and met the lecturer and we were unbarred the following day. What a joke.

There's my housemate, who recently has some trouble. Her sadness seemed to drag the whole house down with her. The rain was not helping.

I wonder when the sun will shine?

A Masterpiece

So it feels like every time I go back to Penang, I will bring something new back to Kampar. The latest purchase is my Transformers MP 8 Grimlock, which I had been anticipating since its announcement last October.

The box is too big for its own good, making it really hard to carry around. The actual figure is kinda small, not much die cast used. But it really looks great in robot and dino mode. I have fun transforming and playing with its various gimmicks too. I took quite a lot photos of it, but since I'm not really that good in setting my C902 yet, the taken photos are pretty good once uploaded..

I might take more photos here when I'm free...

Anyway, my return to Penang felt short and rushed as usual. Too much things to do on Saturday and not enough time. I'm sorry to have to put Zero aeroplane. Kinda feel bad that I'm such a bad friend. Haiz...

I went for a movie Saturday night with KKK. We watched Fast & Furios 4. Entertaining movie, although a bit disappointed that the cars used by the main characters are not really cool...We had japanese food that day and I tried Japanese curry. Rather tasty, and extremely full after ate it ^^

Wanted to visit Vince to buy comic too, but unfortunately not much time...sorry la :p

It's late and I want to sleep now. The exam is around the corner, hopefully by that time I will muster enough determination to study...

Tataz!

Accidentally Wasted

Man, I and my group of friends were scolded (along with few other row of people ^^) by the lecturer today, and it was totally not fair! I mean, we kept quiet for the whole lecture and then we just talked something a bit and she saw it, and totally hentam us all...man, damn geram!!!

Ah, well, it was a rainy day. In fact, my helmet was soaked with water, I have to dry it tomorrow. Smelly too ....

I and my classmates went for the musical called Accidentally In Love, organized by the school Drama Society. It was, well, kinda boring. The cast talked too quiet, and the mics didn't exactly help. Some of the dancing were nice, but that's all. For a show of 1 hour +, the entry ticket of RM5 is so not worth it.

But at least it's for donation

Haha, I'm really wasted now too. Tired than usual. Nitez~