The Gray View

Allow me to talk more about negativities and all the other craps. Afterall, blogs are some sort of outlet for us right? To write something so I can feel better, and laugh at it when read it on another day.

I know I might sound too negative. But hey, it's not like I want it. Who wants to be sad and feel all the negativity everyday? I don't want. And it's not like there's anything much I can do.

There was once, a friend asked me what would I do when I was sad. I said "I will go to sleep, and then tomorrow will be a better day." Truth is, I can't do that. When I wake up, it might be a better day, but it will continue on. That unexplainable sadness will still be there.

Now, to remove all those sadness, you should find out the root of all trouble. What is bothering you etc. But what if you don't know? What if you know there's something, but you can't seem to grasp on what it is?

Then what to do? Keep escaping until some happier stuffs can make you forget it, erase it from your mind. That's what I am facing. I don't know the root of my problems. I just feel...blue.

Now here I am, in my little room (Kampar). I hate it. It's small, isolated and no air passing through. I feel locked inside, like a prison, difficult to breath. And I wonder how I am supposed to feel better when even my own room can't give me any comfort. Tough luck.

I just hate it. I hate it when I was down and no one comes for me. I know people have to be independent but can't anyone helps me? Can't anyone just ask "Are you ok?". Probably it's all wishful thinking.

Gray world. I see the world in gray

Before I Sleep...

Kinda running out of nice title for a blog entry, but hey, it does sound kinda cool.

Anyway, after one week holiday (which I gave myself) in Penang, I'm back in Kampar. It's almost the end of the 2nd semester and it's EXAM time! Oh, how I hate exam~ Why do we even have exam anyway? It sucks

I expected to say that for the remaining of UTAR years

Anyway, this morning, the bus trip was HORRIBLE, TERRIBLE and VEGETABLE

Slow and totally uncomfortable. I felt my back aching when I was on the bus. Some more there were delays and delays. Police stopped the bus also dunno for what...haiz.

1 more week before exam...gonna die hard soon!

Catching Up

Well, temporary reviving this blog.

I originally had a lots of stuffs to write about, trip to Ipoh for steak and beer, movies, Korean BBQ...But I don't have the time, and really lazy to write on the blog.

Guess what? Exam's right around the corner. I've been really lazy this whole sem, feel like playing the whole sem instead of studying. Sigh. I hope I will manage to catch up in time to pass all the subjects.

I also need to cut down on expenses. Man, I've been using money like water...Really need to save for the all the important stuffs I want to buy ^^

That's it for now. Tata. I hope the next updates will be soon