Conflicted...

It's been a while, around two weeks I think, since I last updated. As usual, there are tons of works waiting to be done so I don't really have the mood to update anything. The good news is, Mr. Yap, the thesis lecturer/tutor is on a holiday leave to somewhere far away and we have fun not being stressed by thesis. The bad news? He's coming back this wednesday and we will have our first thesis presentation this friday. Wonderful....

Something happened the last weekend. And that something struck through the barrier surrounding my heart...it was rather painful. I thought I have gotten over it. I thought it is no longer relevant to me. I was right. It is very much important to me...

And then the whole week...it was like a nightmare slowly turning into a very sweet dream, but very unreal. I know I'm still dreaming, and I also know that I should wake up. But I can't control it. I just hope I'm strong enough to face it when the dream turns into a nightmare...or a void.

Sorry for the cryptic message...well, I just want to write this to remind myself...

Conflicted...

Marathon Week~

Yeah!

Rush homeworks!

Rush for mid terms!

Rush for assignments!

WTH!? We have so much time to do all these meh? I don't even have the proper time to write blog....

So far AAP assignment is settled (remaining the test), Tax in progress (test coming too), never ending Thesis....Marketing test settled (I get 35/40! :D), with the assignment slowly completing...

Thank God the E-Commerce is over, both test and assignment. It's a solo job for me, I guess it's fair since I depend on them to do the AAP. I think the presentation goes well too. Hehe. I like presentation ^^

Hehe. I look good. Very seldomly I can get cool pic of myself ^^



Well done. Off to another busy week!!!

Thank God It's Friday!

No, no that other Friday which is involved in food. I mean it literally. Thank God it is Friday!
The whole week had been pretty hard on all of us. Full of things to do, assignments, homeworks, theses, presentation and others. It's like every subject you at least have some works to do. The whole week really burnt us out!

Forgive my repetitiveness, but thank God it's Friday again! The weekends will allow us to get some well deserved rest. But that's not saying much. We still have tons of works to do. Let's see, Monday need to submit AAP assignments, homeworks, theses methodology paper or something, and there's a mid term test for E-Commerce the next day. Scary schedule~

Speaking of Friday, we finally attended our third dreaded Miss Theresa's Advanced Taxation tutorial class, after missing many of the class thanks to conveniently placed CNY and public holidays. So we all attended the class and prepared to be "shot". Surprisingly, she was quite "normal" today. I learned quite a lot from the class, I think that's got to do with the answers already posted up the web, so we don't have to randomly present using our wrong answers!

Unfortunately, the normality didn't last wrong and she reverted back to her usual self when the class ended. A classmate tried to ask something and she just blew her away. Rather rude if you ask me.

Enough of the stupid Theresa, the less said, the better.

Anyway, following my usual Friday schedule, I went for a jog this evening (the sky was dark and it rained after I finished my jog. Big surprise). I couldn't jog for a long time, my leg got tired and muscle pain. I guess tomorrow I will rest for a day without jogging. Probably my body telling me to rest and don't overwork myself.

OK. Ready for some good news? Heh.



I WON!!!!!!!!!!

My gamble luck was rather good today. We played the usual 8/9 and Black Jack. I did the dealer for a while and ended up winning a considerate amount of money, filling my Bumblebee head and needing another extra container for the remaining balance! For once, I actually won~!!!

Let's hope I won't lose too badly next time ^^

Something between jogging and raining...

Riddle me this: When you will get wet and sweaty and cold and hot?

The answer is going for jogging in Kampar.

Ugghh, the weather is really demotivating to my jogging and slimming plans. It's as though as the God is trying to stop or something. When I'm not free and running around the campus, the weather is always extremely hot.

So, naturally, when I want to realize my diet plan and go for a jog in the Westlake garden, the sky always turn dark and always rain. Really geram la!!!

Today I went to jog again and it rained. Not really surprise as once I arrived in the park, I saw the town with heavy dark cloud. A sight of raining. Luckily I jogged for around 20 minutes before it rained...



It is times like this that I wish I have a treadmill at home...T.T

All of these are so not worth it

Just need to write down something, if not, I feel like I'm gonna explode.

I'm just tired of all of it, that's all. Assignment this, test that and everything.

I had Marketing test this morning. It was easier than anticipated. But that was not the point. The point is that I spent my Sunday on completing the theses theory review instead of studying until there was not much time left to study.

Why do it myself you ask? How about no one else seems to care? Everyone was so busy with their studies that no one bothered to do something about it. Left to me again...as a result, I finished the review in around 1am and not much time left for my Marketing revision. I'm lucky to be alive.

I just feel that I don't get the thanks I'm entitled too. Hey, I'm not overestimating my own capability. But since I manage to finish the review, how about a thank you? No, no nothing. It's the same as doing class rep. No gratitude from others. No Thank You. It's the same as printing notes for other people. No Thank You. And I can't even get back the full money that I paid for the photostating.

Just now the lecturer asked about some key terms in our theory review. I tried to explain but the others kept on saying the contracting points, even though they didn't even read the articles. And somehow, for some reasons, it ends up like it's my fault for trying to tell them to stop explaining the wrong terms and trying to explain myself.

This is the thanks I get? Cool

All of these are so not worth it

Overwhelming Odds

I never thought I'm going to sign in again and update my blog, but I need some outlet. I have some serious frustration to vent!

Year 3 Sem 1, this is potentially the last year of my study life. As usual, I come into every sem, promising to myself that I will work harder. In a way, I actually did. If I didn't, I can't see myself surviving past this.

The third and final year is so much tougher than anything I have ever faced before. We have 5 subjects, 2 of them (E Commerce and Marketing) is the usual theory type (translation: my favorite type of subjects), but it's the other 3 that is the big problem.

Research/Theses. This is what we have been afraid of since last year. It is the year long project that contributes to a big part of our final CGPA. After narrowly avoiding an in-fighting of the class, groups are formed and works are carried out. Man, there are a lot of things to do for this subject. From searching for articles, writing reviews, meeting the supervisors. Damn troublesome. What's even more troublesome is when apparently your group members do nothing or are too slow to catch up, leaving all the rest to you!!!

Then there's Advanced Accounting Practice and Advanced Taxation. The lecturer...Miss Theresa. She's so damn stupid and useless. Lectures are so boring and the notes are so badly done that we have to print out two copies since she always updates it after finishing the lecture. And the tutorial part is even worst. She wants us to present taxation in class. Hello? The reason we come to school is to learn how to count from lecturers. If other students can teach us, what for we come here? I don't even want to imagine how to survive past these two subjects, especially taxation.

This is frustrating. Too much works to do...And the sky always turn dark whenever I want to go jogging!

ARRRRRGHHHH!!!!!

21st Progress....

I was pleasantly surprised when my fellow housemates and friends celebrated my birthday. There were 4 birthday boys/girls on the day. It was a big surprise because a few days had passed and I tohught there won't be any celebration. I felt really happy about it



Me and Bernice, we are the 27th, Angela 28th, and Shin Young 29th. Nice huh? I got a nice present, a shirt too ^^

Hmmm, it's nearly the end of 2009, and it was a great year. Gonna write something about the year in review. My first year in UTAR is almost finished and left 1 year to go. I still remember counting the days to go to finally go back to Penang. Now, I'm not sure. I will miss all my friends...that's for sure.

Of course, the end of a semester means that there are exams! Two subjects and now one left to go. IT for Management was harder than I expected (mainly thanks to useless lecturer) but I think I will manage. Left entrepreneurship to go!

Becoming an Entrepreneur?

Hi guys, what's up? This is the third semester, a short sem actually. Naturally we would think it will be more relaxing and more time to well, um, play. Too bad. Unfortunately, while we just study 2 subjects, we have double the classes. So, we still are quite busy....sigh

Now, about the classes. One of them is the IT for Management. Seriously? How many times we have to study IT over and over again? Plus the lecturer and tutor are not helping. They are not very good at teaching and we just doze off when they are putting us to sleep.

But Entrepreneurship, now we're talking. That's one interesting subjects. Frankly, the lecturer is not very good. But the tutor is wonderful. He can make the whole class interesting with his teachings and the way he teaches, it's definitely out of the box. He's like an entrepreneur himself!

On a side note, UTAR system is really frustrating. There's multiple timetables and it's unknown that which is correct which is wrong, and then conflicting time too. Stupid UTAR.

Oh well, this sem is full of sunshine ahead!

Holiday Chronicles

Wahaha, so I've designed to change my blog name to *drumroll~* "A Lazy Guy's Blog"! Fitting, isn't it? ^^

Hehe. Anyone, it's the end of my second term holiday. I'm heading back to Kampar to suffer another term tomorrow. It was a 3 week term holidays. I had tried to write about my activities over the holidays, but my laziness got the better of me. Isn't that always the case? I had planned to write more about my Semester 2, but guess what? I was too lazy to write about it too.

Ok, ahem. Back to the topic. the 3 weeks holiday was pretty uneventful compared to my first semester holiday. Mainly because I had no transport. I could only use my mum' bike during the night or on weekends. So I was trapped in my little apartment most of the day, online-ing, eating and watching TV. I guess I gained quite a lot of weight these 3 weeks. T.T

There were still some interesting stuffs. I went to Genting Highlands with few of my KTAR friends. To tell the truth, it was just an ok trip. Mainly I'm not that kind of guy who enjoyed thrill rides. I really enjoyed the cool weather there though. Imagine Malaysia has 4 seasons and sometimes it's cool like Genting....Anyway, it's also the first time I went into a casino. I must say, it is a terrible place. Smoking, some not so nice and friendly looking people, and gambling. My 2 friends went ahead and gambled. I looked at them losing money...in the end lost about RM300. Scary place.

Oh ya, we went to the Genting Hotel's restaurant for RM50+ buffet. Not exactly worth it....nothing exotic. Should've gone to Penang buffet....

Let me refresh my memory a while, oh ya, there's still went out with another group of former KTAR classmates. It was nice catching up too. I hope we could do some gathering next year during CNY. It will be fun~

So the new semester starts now. I'm really lucky to able to pass all my subjects last sem. I must be more hardworking this sem.....Gambateh!

Wow...a kinda positive post for once :D

The Gray View

Allow me to talk more about negativities and all the other craps. Afterall, blogs are some sort of outlet for us right? To write something so I can feel better, and laugh at it when read it on another day.

I know I might sound too negative. But hey, it's not like I want it. Who wants to be sad and feel all the negativity everyday? I don't want. And it's not like there's anything much I can do.

There was once, a friend asked me what would I do when I was sad. I said "I will go to sleep, and then tomorrow will be a better day." Truth is, I can't do that. When I wake up, it might be a better day, but it will continue on. That unexplainable sadness will still be there.

Now, to remove all those sadness, you should find out the root of all trouble. What is bothering you etc. But what if you don't know? What if you know there's something, but you can't seem to grasp on what it is?

Then what to do? Keep escaping until some happier stuffs can make you forget it, erase it from your mind. That's what I am facing. I don't know the root of my problems. I just feel...blue.

Now here I am, in my little room (Kampar). I hate it. It's small, isolated and no air passing through. I feel locked inside, like a prison, difficult to breath. And I wonder how I am supposed to feel better when even my own room can't give me any comfort. Tough luck.

I just hate it. I hate it when I was down and no one comes for me. I know people have to be independent but can't anyone helps me? Can't anyone just ask "Are you ok?". Probably it's all wishful thinking.

Gray world. I see the world in gray

Before I Sleep...

Kinda running out of nice title for a blog entry, but hey, it does sound kinda cool.

Anyway, after one week holiday (which I gave myself) in Penang, I'm back in Kampar. It's almost the end of the 2nd semester and it's EXAM time! Oh, how I hate exam~ Why do we even have exam anyway? It sucks

I expected to say that for the remaining of UTAR years

Anyway, this morning, the bus trip was HORRIBLE, TERRIBLE and VEGETABLE

Slow and totally uncomfortable. I felt my back aching when I was on the bus. Some more there were delays and delays. Police stopped the bus also dunno for what...haiz.

1 more week before exam...gonna die hard soon!

Catching Up

Well, temporary reviving this blog.

I originally had a lots of stuffs to write about, trip to Ipoh for steak and beer, movies, Korean BBQ...But I don't have the time, and really lazy to write on the blog.

Guess what? Exam's right around the corner. I've been really lazy this whole sem, feel like playing the whole sem instead of studying. Sigh. I hope I will manage to catch up in time to pass all the subjects.

I also need to cut down on expenses. Man, I've been using money like water...Really need to save for the all the important stuffs I want to buy ^^

That's it for now. Tata. I hope the next updates will be soon

Busiest Week With Boring-est Weekend

BUSIEST WEEK EVER"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111!!!!!111!11!!!!!!!!1

Yeah, definitely, I needed to pass up 4 freaking assignments last week, and another 2 last last week...it's driving me crazy!!!!!!!!

And killing my brain cells too

Phew....Finally let that out. Yeah, you know, as we are all 'good and responsible' students, it's only natural that we do our assignment during the last minutes right?

Well...it was one hell of a week. We were like, doing the assignment and passed it up the next day. All rushed job, and I dare say, horribly put together, without any references to text books etc :P. The great part was...most of the assignments were about theories, so I had to do a lot of the parts...ouch

Oh well, at least it was rewarding. I went back Penang on Friday for few days off.

But it was lonely...yeap, lonely island. KKK fetched me from QB where my friends dropped me, and we went to Island Red Coffee (not that good btw). He went back to UUM the next day. I spent my weekends alone at house or wondering QB and Gurney, buying comics again :P

I and family had dinner at Salsas Restaurant, inside Contimental Hotel. It was pretty nice, and price is reasonable. Brother bought his gf alone btw. When can I finally get mine T.T

Monday was quite boring too. I managed to pull out few old vcds from my cabinet and lying on sofa watching shows the whole afternoon. Then I went out yum cha with Vince in the evening. We went to Mister Pot (sp?)...one drink from the menu attracted my attention, it's Bloody Mary. A liquor cocktail made from Vodka, Tomato Juice, Lemon plus God-knows-what....it tasted...different and weird. I don't think I will order it another time

Vince didn't dare to order Mocha Banana...coward :P

Here's a Bloody Mary:



Going back Kampar early morning, so gotta crash. See ya!

Masks

Well, know more about my friends today. I have to apologize for what I've always been thinking about them. I always thought that they're just bunch of guys with serious alcohol addiction, love to mess around and no substance. I was wrong. Hell, they are even more mature than me.

I thought I have it rough. Petite loneliness issue? Can't get a girl? Blah. Those are nothing compared to my friends' issues. Man, those are severe.

Examples? How about a parents who just set up his child's path and just force him to do what he does not like, even when he found the thing he like? And what about another friend, who never gets support from his family? Or another who has to study hard even though she doesn't want to, just to help her family?

Looking at them, I feel ashamed. What am I doing with my life?

And I also feel so happy to have a good and supportive family. Thanks dad and mum. Thanks ah gong. Thanks everyone. I love you all. I will change. I won't let you all down.

Love You

More About Year 2 Sem 2

Time to write more about year 2 sem 2. Overall, I think I can fare better in this sem. Start to get more familiar with Kampar and there's less homesick feelings now. Now I become the class rep of my tutorial group (since no one wants to be anyway...), so I guess I need change myself and start to bear more responsibilty....

That being said...just now we had some beer party. Not as great as we had expected, it was quite enjoyable nevertheless. We bought 3 buckets and I had 2 bottle of Carlsberg.



Some of the housemates got drunk...Man, how I hate it when people get drunk. They were talking nonsense and even said something rude to housemates and acted like they don't care...how can people be so unreasonable?

I guess it's just that our life style are different. Now I've learnt not to care and not to let it affect me in anyway. So it's their business....well, I have my life anyway. I have my own way

The Second Raid

It's been a while since the last update. I was really busy the whole holiday, went out with friends, movies, dinners with family and etc etc...I really enjoyed the short holiday very much. And that means, time flew by in a flash. And here I am, back in Kampar.

The second sem is definitely harder. More things to study and more classes to attend, and even worse timetable. Sigh. I passed my first sem through sheer luck and coincident, so this sem I hopefully can do the same, with more effort.

At least I now feel a bit more comfortable in Kampar now. Days ahead are brighter, by a dim :D

Overwhelmed

Definitely and totally overwhelmed.

Man, the examinations...so difficult and I have so much to catch up in order to pass. If fail then I need to resit the fail subjects. Stupid Utar and their stupid system...

Well, being busy has its advantages actually. Like I don't much time to think all those other things, well, most of the time anyway.

Now there's about one week left for the school holiday and I will go back home to do a lot of things.

Changing myself is on the top of the priority list. I kinda find out about my own limit here, going to change

Hopefully I will keep my words!

First Day of Exam

So this is the very first day I had exam here. As a first time, it didn't go so well. I thought I was quite prepared. Guess not. I used the wrong strategy and wasted too much and I could not complete the paper. Sigh. I think I can pass. I hope I can pass...

Well, just have to work hard for the following subjects!

Rain = Bad Mood?

I guess there's a certain degree of truth about it, since I and few housemates were feeling really down these few days. Haih. How I miss Penang. If I'm in a bad mood, I can always go to many shopping centres for shopping spree, or go to look at the sea...But here, there's no where to go to....

Oh yeah, I was barred from QT II examination on Tuesday. The Utar admin called and I got the shock of my life. Seriously? Barred? Impossible

And then the rest of my housemates (we study in the same class) received their calls as well. Needless to say there's a serious mistakes there. And so we went and met the lecturer and we were unbarred the following day. What a joke.

There's my housemate, who recently has some trouble. Her sadness seemed to drag the whole house down with her. The rain was not helping.

I wonder when the sun will shine?

A Masterpiece

So it feels like every time I go back to Penang, I will bring something new back to Kampar. The latest purchase is my Transformers MP 8 Grimlock, which I had been anticipating since its announcement last October.

The box is too big for its own good, making it really hard to carry around. The actual figure is kinda small, not much die cast used. But it really looks great in robot and dino mode. I have fun transforming and playing with its various gimmicks too. I took quite a lot photos of it, but since I'm not really that good in setting my C902 yet, the taken photos are pretty good once uploaded..

I might take more photos here when I'm free...

Anyway, my return to Penang felt short and rushed as usual. Too much things to do on Saturday and not enough time. I'm sorry to have to put Zero aeroplane. Kinda feel bad that I'm such a bad friend. Haiz...

I went for a movie Saturday night with KKK. We watched Fast & Furios 4. Entertaining movie, although a bit disappointed that the cars used by the main characters are not really cool...We had japanese food that day and I tried Japanese curry. Rather tasty, and extremely full after ate it ^^

Wanted to visit Vince to buy comic too, but unfortunately not much time...sorry la :p

It's late and I want to sleep now. The exam is around the corner, hopefully by that time I will muster enough determination to study...

Tataz!