I think I'm on the edge of breaking down...
Did something really horrible to an important friend
I shouldn't have done so...
I should have considered her feelings for...I shouldn't let anger and disappointment to cloud my judgment....I shouldn't have been so impulsive
Now I have ruined everything...
I think everything will be different from now on and it's me who made it that way...
It's my fault and I can blame no one...
Stupid.
Hate myself for this
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Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Conflicted...
It's been a while, around two weeks I think, since I last updated. As usual, there are tons of works waiting to be done so I don't really have the mood to update anything. The good news is, Mr. Yap, the thesis lecturer/tutor is on a holiday leave to somewhere far away and we have fun not being stressed by thesis. The bad news? He's coming back this wednesday and we will have our first thesis presentation this friday. Wonderful....
Something happened the last weekend. And that something struck through the barrier surrounding my heart...it was rather painful. I thought I have gotten over it. I thought it is no longer relevant to me. I was right. It is very much important to me...
And then the whole week...it was like a nightmare slowly turning into a very sweet dream, but very unreal. I know I'm still dreaming, and I also know that I should wake up. But I can't control it. I just hope I'm strong enough to face it when the dream turns into a nightmare...or a void.
Sorry for the cryptic message...well, I just want to write this to remind myself...
Conflicted...
Something happened the last weekend. And that something struck through the barrier surrounding my heart...it was rather painful. I thought I have gotten over it. I thought it is no longer relevant to me. I was right. It is very much important to me...
And then the whole week...it was like a nightmare slowly turning into a very sweet dream, but very unreal. I know I'm still dreaming, and I also know that I should wake up. But I can't control it. I just hope I'm strong enough to face it when the dream turns into a nightmare...or a void.
Sorry for the cryptic message...well, I just want to write this to remind myself...
Conflicted...
Friday, March 5, 2010
Thank God It's Friday!
No, no that other Friday which is involved in food. I mean it literally. Thank God it is Friday!
The whole week had been pretty hard on all of us. Full of things to do, assignments, homeworks, theses, presentation and others. It's like every subject you at least have some works to do. The whole week really burnt us out!
Forgive my repetitiveness, but thank God it's Friday again! The weekends will allow us to get some well deserved rest. But that's not saying much. We still have tons of works to do. Let's see, Monday need to submit AAP assignments, homeworks, theses methodology paper or something, and there's a mid term test for E-Commerce the next day. Scary schedule~
Speaking of Friday, we finally attended our third dreaded Miss Theresa's Advanced Taxation tutorial class, after missing many of the class thanks to conveniently placed CNY and public holidays. So we all attended the class and prepared to be "shot". Surprisingly, she was quite "normal" today. I learned quite a lot from the class, I think that's got to do with the answers already posted up the web, so we don't have to randomly present using our wrong answers!
Unfortunately, the normality didn't last wrong and she reverted back to her usual self when the class ended. A classmate tried to ask something and she just blew her away. Rather rude if you ask me.
Enough of the stupid Theresa, the less said, the better.
Anyway, following my usual Friday schedule, I went for a jog this evening (the sky was dark and it rained after I finished my jog. Big surprise). I couldn't jog for a long time, my leg got tired and muscle pain. I guess tomorrow I will rest for a day without jogging. Probably my body telling me to rest and don't overwork myself.
OK. Ready for some good news? Heh.
I WON!!!!!!!!!!
My gamble luck was rather good today. We played the usual 8/9 and Black Jack. I did the dealer for a while and ended up winning a considerate amount of money, filling my Bumblebee head and needing another extra container for the remaining balance! For once, I actually won~!!!
Let's hope I won't lose too badly next time ^^
The whole week had been pretty hard on all of us. Full of things to do, assignments, homeworks, theses, presentation and others. It's like every subject you at least have some works to do. The whole week really burnt us out!
Forgive my repetitiveness, but thank God it's Friday again! The weekends will allow us to get some well deserved rest. But that's not saying much. We still have tons of works to do. Let's see, Monday need to submit AAP assignments, homeworks, theses methodology paper or something, and there's a mid term test for E-Commerce the next day. Scary schedule~
Speaking of Friday, we finally attended our third dreaded Miss Theresa's Advanced Taxation tutorial class, after missing many of the class thanks to conveniently placed CNY and public holidays. So we all attended the class and prepared to be "shot". Surprisingly, she was quite "normal" today. I learned quite a lot from the class, I think that's got to do with the answers already posted up the web, so we don't have to randomly present using our wrong answers!
Unfortunately, the normality didn't last wrong and she reverted back to her usual self when the class ended. A classmate tried to ask something and she just blew her away. Rather rude if you ask me.
Enough of the stupid Theresa, the less said, the better.
Anyway, following my usual Friday schedule, I went for a jog this evening (the sky was dark and it rained after I finished my jog. Big surprise). I couldn't jog for a long time, my leg got tired and muscle pain. I guess tomorrow I will rest for a day without jogging. Probably my body telling me to rest and don't overwork myself.
OK. Ready for some good news? Heh.
I WON!!!!!!!!!!
My gamble luck was rather good today. We played the usual 8/9 and Black Jack. I did the dealer for a while and ended up winning a considerate amount of money, filling my Bumblebee head and needing another extra container for the remaining balance! For once, I actually won~!!!
Let's hope I won't lose too badly next time ^^
Monday, March 1, 2010
All of these are so not worth it
Just need to write down something, if not, I feel like I'm gonna explode.
I'm just tired of all of it, that's all. Assignment this, test that and everything.
I had Marketing test this morning. It was easier than anticipated. But that was not the point. The point is that I spent my Sunday on completing the theses theory review instead of studying until there was not much time left to study.
Why do it myself you ask? How about no one else seems to care? Everyone was so busy with their studies that no one bothered to do something about it. Left to me again...as a result, I finished the review in around 1am and not much time left for my Marketing revision. I'm lucky to be alive.
I just feel that I don't get the thanks I'm entitled too. Hey, I'm not overestimating my own capability. But since I manage to finish the review, how about a thank you? No, no nothing. It's the same as doing class rep. No gratitude from others. No Thank You. It's the same as printing notes for other people. No Thank You. And I can't even get back the full money that I paid for the photostating.
Just now the lecturer asked about some key terms in our theory review. I tried to explain but the others kept on saying the contracting points, even though they didn't even read the articles. And somehow, for some reasons, it ends up like it's my fault for trying to tell them to stop explaining the wrong terms and trying to explain myself.
This is the thanks I get? Cool
All of these are so not worth it
I'm just tired of all of it, that's all. Assignment this, test that and everything.
I had Marketing test this morning. It was easier than anticipated. But that was not the point. The point is that I spent my Sunday on completing the theses theory review instead of studying until there was not much time left to study.
Why do it myself you ask? How about no one else seems to care? Everyone was so busy with their studies that no one bothered to do something about it. Left to me again...as a result, I finished the review in around 1am and not much time left for my Marketing revision. I'm lucky to be alive.
I just feel that I don't get the thanks I'm entitled too. Hey, I'm not overestimating my own capability. But since I manage to finish the review, how about a thank you? No, no nothing. It's the same as doing class rep. No gratitude from others. No Thank You. It's the same as printing notes for other people. No Thank You. And I can't even get back the full money that I paid for the photostating.
Just now the lecturer asked about some key terms in our theory review. I tried to explain but the others kept on saying the contracting points, even though they didn't even read the articles. And somehow, for some reasons, it ends up like it's my fault for trying to tell them to stop explaining the wrong terms and trying to explain myself.
This is the thanks I get? Cool
All of these are so not worth it
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Overwhelming Odds
I never thought I'm going to sign in again and update my blog, but I need some outlet. I have some serious frustration to vent!
Year 3 Sem 1, this is potentially the last year of my study life. As usual, I come into every sem, promising to myself that I will work harder. In a way, I actually did. If I didn't, I can't see myself surviving past this.
The third and final year is so much tougher than anything I have ever faced before. We have 5 subjects, 2 of them (E Commerce and Marketing) is the usual theory type (translation: my favorite type of subjects), but it's the other 3 that is the big problem.
Research/Theses. This is what we have been afraid of since last year. It is the year long project that contributes to a big part of our final CGPA. After narrowly avoiding an in-fighting of the class, groups are formed and works are carried out. Man, there are a lot of things to do for this subject. From searching for articles, writing reviews, meeting the supervisors. Damn troublesome. What's even more troublesome is when apparently your group members do nothing or are too slow to catch up, leaving all the rest to you!!!
Then there's Advanced Accounting Practice and Advanced Taxation. The lecturer...Miss Theresa. She's so damn stupid and useless. Lectures are so boring and the notes are so badly done that we have to print out two copies since she always updates it after finishing the lecture. And the tutorial part is even worst. She wants us to present taxation in class. Hello? The reason we come to school is to learn how to count from lecturers. If other students can teach us, what for we come here? I don't even want to imagine how to survive past these two subjects, especially taxation.
This is frustrating. Too much works to do...And the sky always turn dark whenever I want to go jogging!
ARRRRRGHHHH!!!!!
Year 3 Sem 1, this is potentially the last year of my study life. As usual, I come into every sem, promising to myself that I will work harder. In a way, I actually did. If I didn't, I can't see myself surviving past this.
The third and final year is so much tougher than anything I have ever faced before. We have 5 subjects, 2 of them (E Commerce and Marketing) is the usual theory type (translation: my favorite type of subjects), but it's the other 3 that is the big problem.
Research/Theses. This is what we have been afraid of since last year. It is the year long project that contributes to a big part of our final CGPA. After narrowly avoiding an in-fighting of the class, groups are formed and works are carried out. Man, there are a lot of things to do for this subject. From searching for articles, writing reviews, meeting the supervisors. Damn troublesome. What's even more troublesome is when apparently your group members do nothing or are too slow to catch up, leaving all the rest to you!!!
Then there's Advanced Accounting Practice and Advanced Taxation. The lecturer...Miss Theresa. She's so damn stupid and useless. Lectures are so boring and the notes are so badly done that we have to print out two copies since she always updates it after finishing the lecture. And the tutorial part is even worst. She wants us to present taxation in class. Hello? The reason we come to school is to learn how to count from lecturers. If other students can teach us, what for we come here? I don't even want to imagine how to survive past these two subjects, especially taxation.
This is frustrating. Too much works to do...And the sky always turn dark whenever I want to go jogging!
ARRRRRGHHHH!!!!!
Monday, December 14, 2009
21st Progress....
I was pleasantly surprised when my fellow housemates and friends celebrated my birthday. There were 4 birthday boys/girls on the day. It was a big surprise because a few days had passed and I tohught there won't be any celebration. I felt really happy about it
Me and Bernice, we are the 27th, Angela 28th, and Shin Young 29th. Nice huh? I got a nice present, a shirt too ^^
Hmmm, it's nearly the end of 2009, and it was a great year. Gonna write something about the year in review. My first year in UTAR is almost finished and left 1 year to go. I still remember counting the days to go to finally go back to Penang. Now, I'm not sure. I will miss all my friends...that's for sure.
Of course, the end of a semester means that there are exams! Two subjects and now one left to go. IT for Management was harder than I expected (mainly thanks to useless lecturer) but I think I will manage. Left entrepreneurship to go!
Me and Bernice, we are the 27th, Angela 28th, and Shin Young 29th. Nice huh? I got a nice present, a shirt too ^^
Hmmm, it's nearly the end of 2009, and it was a great year. Gonna write something about the year in review. My first year in UTAR is almost finished and left 1 year to go. I still remember counting the days to go to finally go back to Penang. Now, I'm not sure. I will miss all my friends...that's for sure.
Of course, the end of a semester means that there are exams! Two subjects and now one left to go. IT for Management was harder than I expected (mainly thanks to useless lecturer) but I think I will manage. Left entrepreneurship to go!
Monday, November 23, 2009
Trip, and More Trip~
The last week burned a lot of holes on my wallet T.T
We went for the movie 2012 last thursday. The whole cinema was full and luckily my friend asked his brother bought the ticket for us first.
The movie was...ok. It was more of CG Feast. The plot is ridiculous to a certain extent and hard to take the movie seriously. But those destruction of various places were done pretty nice....really great to look at. But I certainly hope end of the world won't come so soon :P
And then friday, we had a liquor party again cause Astley brought his younger brother along. The little guy definitely has the potential of a great tanker ^^
We played poker too. Man, the game was really addicting. It's like you can't stop once you start losing and try to win some back...scary. Luckily we didn't play big XD
Saturday was rather uneventful.
But Sunday? Another story. I don't know what's up with my housemates as they suddenly came out with the idea to go to Cameron Highland. It was raining so then we changed last minute to Ipoh (again).
Nothing much to do, just eating at the "Dong Gu Teng", a food court with lots of stuffs....
Speaking of rain, it has been raining everyday these few weeks. A pain to dry my clothes. And I think I'm getting the flue...sigh. Sometimes raining too often is quite troublesome....
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Selfish People
Think I should write these down when I still feel the anger.
It's really annoying you know? There's this little thing called PPStream where you can stream live video. People say it's the best thing EVA!!!!1111!!!
It's the best thing ever if you're the one using. But when you are sharing one internet connection with multiple housemates...pls be more considerate la.
PPStream eats away most of our connection and we are left with extremely weak internet speed. Facebooking, youtube, check mail and everything become a pain. You are building you happiness on our pain!
I dunno why after we told you on and on again and you still din listen. Stop looking for new shows!!!
It's all right if you are currently 'chasing' 2 or 3 shows and watch like 2 hours per day. But stop looking for new shows and some unrelated shows when you are too free. Pls be more considerate lah!!!!!
Really really annoying
It's really annoying you know? There's this little thing called PPStream where you can stream live video. People say it's the best thing EVA!!!!1111!!!
It's the best thing ever if you're the one using. But when you are sharing one internet connection with multiple housemates...pls be more considerate la.
PPStream eats away most of our connection and we are left with extremely weak internet speed. Facebooking, youtube, check mail and everything become a pain. You are building you happiness on our pain!
I dunno why after we told you on and on again and you still din listen. Stop looking for new shows!!!
It's all right if you are currently 'chasing' 2 or 3 shows and watch like 2 hours per day. But stop looking for new shows and some unrelated shows when you are too free. Pls be more considerate lah!!!!!
Really really annoying
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
My Lonely Corner
Well, it just occurs to me that I still feel left out sometimes.
Not so bad actually...just feel so hopeless about it.
And there's lots of things...sometimes there's a lot of things you have done, but people never seem to appreciate and recognize it. It's like they turn a blind eye to it.
I guess it can't be helped. I guess I'm already get over it. I just have to survive by myself.
I am strong now.
Not so bad actually...just feel so hopeless about it.
And there's lots of things...sometimes there's a lot of things you have done, but people never seem to appreciate and recognize it. It's like they turn a blind eye to it.
I guess it can't be helped. I guess I'm already get over it. I just have to survive by myself.
I am strong now.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Pay Money to Suffer
Heh, that's what I think on this latest trip to KL on last weekends.It literally came out of nowhere. A housemate said want to go KL for a vacation or something and everyone agreed, and I got pulled into it along. Oh well.
The destination for the trip is Sunway Pyramid because some housemates don't want to go shopping, but just want to play. Sunway Pyramid was chosen because of the ice skating. They were pretty excited for it.
Not me unfortunately. And my sixth sense was proven correct. Ice skating was an absolute disaster for me. I couldn't play well at all and all I could do was crawling using the wall. A plain waste of money (RM30 btw)
Sunway Pyramid definitely looks different now. During my last visit to there (when I was standard 6!), it was quite small and nothing much there. Now it looks so high class and huge!
Anyway, we had TGI Friday for dinner. I've been looking forward to this and very interested to try the restaurant. It was costly, but, hey, once in a while right? We made the wrong orders. We should have share a set per two person. The quantity was too much!!! It's like we paid money to suffer the wrath of overwhelming food!!!
At least now I know when I go for a second time, I will share with another personSaturday night, the housemates wanted to go clubbing. I would say they have became quite crazy and alcohol crazy. I didn't join them as I went to my relatives' house to stay over the night. My God, the house was huge and really comfortable. I particularly love that private mini theater room with bluray. Awesome. I want that kind of house in the future too!
We spent the rest of our sunday trip on shopping spree. Buying clothes was the plan. Damn. I was getting fatter and it was quite difficult to get some nice clothes that I desired. In the end, I only bought two, and one of them couldn't fit me....looks like I need to buy again sometimes....
Something funny occurred when we finally returned back to Kampar. One housemate locked the door of the house which none of the house residents has the key!!! We had to break the door knob to enter. Break and Enter!!!
Overall, quite an ok trip, not much planning and didn't travel enough. Guess conflicts of ideas and interest will do that. I want to go to KL again, preferably with less people (9 in this trip) so we can coordinate more and go more places....
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Holiday Chronicles
Wahaha, so I've designed to change my blog name to *drumroll~* "A Lazy Guy's Blog"! Fitting, isn't it? ^^
Hehe. Anyone, it's the end of my second term holiday. I'm heading back to Kampar to suffer another term tomorrow. It was a 3 week term holidays. I had tried to write about my activities over the holidays, but my laziness got the better of me. Isn't that always the case? I had planned to write more about my Semester 2, but guess what? I was too lazy to write about it too.
Ok, ahem. Back to the topic. the 3 weeks holiday was pretty uneventful compared to my first semester holiday. Mainly because I had no transport. I could only use my mum' bike during the night or on weekends. So I was trapped in my little apartment most of the day, online-ing, eating and watching TV. I guess I gained quite a lot of weight these 3 weeks. T.T
There were still some interesting stuffs. I went to Genting Highlands with few of my KTAR friends. To tell the truth, it was just an ok trip. Mainly I'm not that kind of guy who enjoyed thrill rides. I really enjoyed the cool weather there though. Imagine Malaysia has 4 seasons and sometimes it's cool like Genting....Anyway, it's also the first time I went into a casino. I must say, it is a terrible place. Smoking, some not so nice and friendly looking people, and gambling. My 2 friends went ahead and gambled. I looked at them losing money...in the end lost about RM300. Scary place.
Oh ya, we went to the Genting Hotel's restaurant for RM50+ buffet. Not exactly worth it....nothing exotic. Should've gone to Penang buffet....
Let me refresh my memory a while, oh ya, there's still went out with another group of former KTAR classmates. It was nice catching up too. I hope we could do some gathering next year during CNY. It will be fun~
So the new semester starts now. I'm really lucky to able to pass all my subjects last sem. I must be more hardworking this sem.....Gambateh!
Wow...a kinda positive post for once :D
Hehe. Anyone, it's the end of my second term holiday. I'm heading back to Kampar to suffer another term tomorrow. It was a 3 week term holidays. I had tried to write about my activities over the holidays, but my laziness got the better of me. Isn't that always the case? I had planned to write more about my Semester 2, but guess what? I was too lazy to write about it too.
Ok, ahem. Back to the topic. the 3 weeks holiday was pretty uneventful compared to my first semester holiday. Mainly because I had no transport. I could only use my mum' bike during the night or on weekends. So I was trapped in my little apartment most of the day, online-ing, eating and watching TV. I guess I gained quite a lot of weight these 3 weeks. T.T
There were still some interesting stuffs. I went to Genting Highlands with few of my KTAR friends. To tell the truth, it was just an ok trip. Mainly I'm not that kind of guy who enjoyed thrill rides. I really enjoyed the cool weather there though. Imagine Malaysia has 4 seasons and sometimes it's cool like Genting....Anyway, it's also the first time I went into a casino. I must say, it is a terrible place. Smoking, some not so nice and friendly looking people, and gambling. My 2 friends went ahead and gambled. I looked at them losing money...in the end lost about RM300. Scary place.
Oh ya, we went to the Genting Hotel's restaurant for RM50+ buffet. Not exactly worth it....nothing exotic. Should've gone to Penang buffet....
Let me refresh my memory a while, oh ya, there's still went out with another group of former KTAR classmates. It was nice catching up too. I hope we could do some gathering next year during CNY. It will be fun~
So the new semester starts now. I'm really lucky to able to pass all my subjects last sem. I must be more hardworking this sem.....Gambateh!
Wow...a kinda positive post for once :D
Monday, September 7, 2009
The Gray View
Allow me to talk more about negativities and all the other craps. Afterall, blogs are some sort of outlet for us right? To write something so I can feel better, and laugh at it when read it on another day.
I know I might sound too negative. But hey, it's not like I want it. Who wants to be sad and feel all the negativity everyday? I don't want. And it's not like there's anything much I can do.
There was once, a friend asked me what would I do when I was sad. I said "I will go to sleep, and then tomorrow will be a better day." Truth is, I can't do that. When I wake up, it might be a better day, but it will continue on. That unexplainable sadness will still be there.
Now, to remove all those sadness, you should find out the root of all trouble. What is bothering you etc. But what if you don't know? What if you know there's something, but you can't seem to grasp on what it is?
Then what to do? Keep escaping until some happier stuffs can make you forget it, erase it from your mind. That's what I am facing. I don't know the root of my problems. I just feel...blue.
Now here I am, in my little room (Kampar). I hate it. It's small, isolated and no air passing through. I feel locked inside, like a prison, difficult to breath. And I wonder how I am supposed to feel better when even my own room can't give me any comfort. Tough luck.
I just hate it. I hate it when I was down and no one comes for me. I know people have to be independent but can't anyone helps me? Can't anyone just ask "Are you ok?". Probably it's all wishful thinking.
Gray world. I see the world in gray
I know I might sound too negative. But hey, it's not like I want it. Who wants to be sad and feel all the negativity everyday? I don't want. And it's not like there's anything much I can do.
There was once, a friend asked me what would I do when I was sad. I said "I will go to sleep, and then tomorrow will be a better day." Truth is, I can't do that. When I wake up, it might be a better day, but it will continue on. That unexplainable sadness will still be there.
Now, to remove all those sadness, you should find out the root of all trouble. What is bothering you etc. But what if you don't know? What if you know there's something, but you can't seem to grasp on what it is?
Then what to do? Keep escaping until some happier stuffs can make you forget it, erase it from your mind. That's what I am facing. I don't know the root of my problems. I just feel...blue.
Now here I am, in my little room (Kampar). I hate it. It's small, isolated and no air passing through. I feel locked inside, like a prison, difficult to breath. And I wonder how I am supposed to feel better when even my own room can't give me any comfort. Tough luck.
I just hate it. I hate it when I was down and no one comes for me. I know people have to be independent but can't anyone helps me? Can't anyone just ask "Are you ok?". Probably it's all wishful thinking.
Gray world. I see the world in gray
Monday, August 3, 2009
Busiest Week With Boring-est Weekend
BUSIEST WEEK EVER"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111!!!!!111!11!!!!!!!!1
Yeah, definitely, I needed to pass up 4 freaking assignments last week, and another 2 last last week...it's driving me crazy!!!!!!!!
And killing my brain cells too
Phew....Finally let that out. Yeah, you know, as we are all 'good and responsible' students, it's only natural that we do our assignment during the last minutes right?
Well...it was one hell of a week. We were like, doing the assignment and passed it up the next day. All rushed job, and I dare say, horribly put together, without any references to text books etc :P. The great part was...most of the assignments were about theories, so I had to do a lot of the parts...ouch
Oh well, at least it was rewarding. I went back Penang on Friday for few days off.
But it was lonely...yeap, lonely island. KKK fetched me from QB where my friends dropped me, and we went to Island Red Coffee (not that good btw). He went back to UUM the next day. I spent my weekends alone at house or wondering QB and Gurney, buying comics again :P
I and family had dinner at Salsas Restaurant, inside Contimental Hotel. It was pretty nice, and price is reasonable. Brother bought his gf alone btw. When can I finally get mine T.T
Monday was quite boring too. I managed to pull out few old vcds from my cabinet and lying on sofa watching shows the whole afternoon. Then I went out yum cha with Vince in the evening. We went to Mister Pot (sp?)...one drink from the menu attracted my attention, it's Bloody Mary. A liquor cocktail made from Vodka, Tomato Juice, Lemon plus God-knows-what....it tasted...different and weird. I don't think I will order it another time
Vince didn't dare to order Mocha Banana...coward :P
Here's a Bloody Mary:
Going back Kampar early morning, so gotta crash. See ya!
Yeah, definitely, I needed to pass up 4 freaking assignments last week, and another 2 last last week...it's driving me crazy!!!!!!!!
And killing my brain cells too
Phew....Finally let that out. Yeah, you know, as we are all 'good and responsible' students, it's only natural that we do our assignment during the last minutes right?
Well...it was one hell of a week. We were like, doing the assignment and passed it up the next day. All rushed job, and I dare say, horribly put together, without any references to text books etc :P. The great part was...most of the assignments were about theories, so I had to do a lot of the parts...ouch
Oh well, at least it was rewarding. I went back Penang on Friday for few days off.
But it was lonely...yeap, lonely island. KKK fetched me from QB where my friends dropped me, and we went to Island Red Coffee (not that good btw). He went back to UUM the next day. I spent my weekends alone at house or wondering QB and Gurney, buying comics again :P
I and family had dinner at Salsas Restaurant, inside Contimental Hotel. It was pretty nice, and price is reasonable. Brother bought his gf alone btw. When can I finally get mine T.T
Monday was quite boring too. I managed to pull out few old vcds from my cabinet and lying on sofa watching shows the whole afternoon. Then I went out yum cha with Vince in the evening. We went to Mister Pot (sp?)...one drink from the menu attracted my attention, it's Bloody Mary. A liquor cocktail made from Vodka, Tomato Juice, Lemon plus God-knows-what....it tasted...different and weird. I don't think I will order it another time
Vince didn't dare to order Mocha Banana...coward :P
Here's a Bloody Mary:
Going back Kampar early morning, so gotta crash. See ya!
Friday, July 3, 2009
Masks
Well, know more about my friends today. I have to apologize for what I've always been thinking about them. I always thought that they're just bunch of guys with serious alcohol addiction, love to mess around and no substance. I was wrong. Hell, they are even more mature than me.
I thought I have it rough. Petite loneliness issue? Can't get a girl? Blah. Those are nothing compared to my friends' issues. Man, those are severe.
Examples? How about a parents who just set up his child's path and just force him to do what he does not like, even when he found the thing he like? And what about another friend, who never gets support from his family? Or another who has to study hard even though she doesn't want to, just to help her family?
Looking at them, I feel ashamed. What am I doing with my life?
And I also feel so happy to have a good and supportive family. Thanks dad and mum. Thanks ah gong. Thanks everyone. I love you all. I will change. I won't let you all down.
Love You
I thought I have it rough. Petite loneliness issue? Can't get a girl? Blah. Those are nothing compared to my friends' issues. Man, those are severe.
Examples? How about a parents who just set up his child's path and just force him to do what he does not like, even when he found the thing he like? And what about another friend, who never gets support from his family? Or another who has to study hard even though she doesn't want to, just to help her family?
Looking at them, I feel ashamed. What am I doing with my life?
And I also feel so happy to have a good and supportive family. Thanks dad and mum. Thanks ah gong. Thanks everyone. I love you all. I will change. I won't let you all down.
Love You
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
More About Year 2 Sem 2
Time to write more about year 2 sem 2. Overall, I think I can fare better in this sem. Start to get more familiar with Kampar and there's less homesick feelings now. Now I become the class rep of my tutorial group (since no one wants to be anyway...), so I guess I need change myself and start to bear more responsibilty....
That being said...just now we had some beer party. Not as great as we had expected, it was quite enjoyable nevertheless. We bought 3 buckets and I had 2 bottle of Carlsberg.
Some of the housemates got drunk...Man, how I hate it when people get drunk. They were talking nonsense and even said something rude to housemates and acted like they don't care...how can people be so unreasonable?
I guess it's just that our life style are different. Now I've learnt not to care and not to let it affect me in anyway. So it's their business....well, I have my life anyway. I have my own way
That being said...just now we had some beer party. Not as great as we had expected, it was quite enjoyable nevertheless. We bought 3 buckets and I had 2 bottle of Carlsberg.
Some of the housemates got drunk...Man, how I hate it when people get drunk. They were talking nonsense and even said something rude to housemates and acted like they don't care...how can people be so unreasonable?
I guess it's just that our life style are different. Now I've learnt not to care and not to let it affect me in anyway. So it's their business....well, I have my life anyway. I have my own way
Monday, May 11, 2009
Complaining Nothing
Heh, what a surprise!? I'm complaining about loneliness again!
I'm sure you're sicked of it, I'm sicked of it myself too. But what to do? Hey, it's not like I want it that way.
I wonder why I feel so alone recently. Last time it's because I can't see my family. But now it's different, I'm having quite a difficulties to mix with my housemates now. Wonder why. Suddenly I'm the odd one out. I thought I could be the center of the house.
I think not anymore
Um, why, you ask?
I don't even know how to explain how exactly I feel lonely. Oh the irony...
Haiz
Life sucks
I'm sure you're sicked of it, I'm sicked of it myself too. But what to do? Hey, it's not like I want it that way.
I wonder why I feel so alone recently. Last time it's because I can't see my family. But now it's different, I'm having quite a difficulties to mix with my housemates now. Wonder why. Suddenly I'm the odd one out. I thought I could be the center of the house.
I think not anymore
Um, why, you ask?
I don't even know how to explain how exactly I feel lonely. Oh the irony...
Haiz
Life sucks
Thursday, May 7, 2009
An Empty House
So V went back to his hometown for a while, and Y just went back to Terangganu for her semester break. The house suddenly gets so quiet. And rather un-home-ly-like. There's no much laughter, and it feel kinda tense.
Today we went to sing k with Y. 6 hours non stop singing. Crazy wasn't it. Overall we enjoyed it. And then it had to happen. SY drove quite recklessly and hit another car's back. Wonderful. And then we discovered the thief struck again and this time stole 2 of my housemate's money and a hp. Stupid. Stupid thief. Fast fast let them kena AIDS and their manhood rotten and then got ran over by pigs and thrown to feed fish.
Way to spoil some good moods.
I'm not exactly in a good mood now. I thought I could make it easy for myself and let it go. Guess no. Something you wish you can, but you just can't forget. There has to be something that went wrong. Something that made it into the current situation. I wish I know. I wish I could turn back the time, few weeks? Few months? To correct what's gone wrong?
Please, what went wrong? Why it has to become this?
It's like you wake up from a dream, and everything's different.
And it's the cold cruel fact now
Too cruel for me
Today we went to sing k with Y. 6 hours non stop singing. Crazy wasn't it. Overall we enjoyed it. And then it had to happen. SY drove quite recklessly and hit another car's back. Wonderful. And then we discovered the thief struck again and this time stole 2 of my housemate's money and a hp. Stupid. Stupid thief. Fast fast let them kena AIDS and their manhood rotten and then got ran over by pigs and thrown to feed fish.
Way to spoil some good moods.
I'm not exactly in a good mood now. I thought I could make it easy for myself and let it go. Guess no. Something you wish you can, but you just can't forget. There has to be something that went wrong. Something that made it into the current situation. I wish I know. I wish I could turn back the time, few weeks? Few months? To correct what's gone wrong?
Please, what went wrong? Why it has to become this?
It's like you wake up from a dream, and everything's different.
And it's the cold cruel fact now
Too cruel for me
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Cameron (One Day) Trip
I don't know how it happened. My classmates, Vincent and Kheng Seng came for chit chat and then suddenly we decided to make an one day trip to Cameron Highlands. I was like WTF!?. But anyway, everyone went along.
We used the old road, which according to the classmates, are more far in distance. We stopped at a waterfall in the middle of our journey. We took few pictures there. The water was really refreshing. Not to mention the slippery floor. I fell down as a result. Luckily my hp are ok...
Then we reached Cameraon Highland at around 5pm. It was late and most of the shops were closed. There goes our plan to visit the tea farm, strawberry farm and butterfly farm. We still managed to get us some strawberry ice cream though. It's delicious.
We had steambot for our dinner. For a RM13 per person price, I was expecting less food. To my pleasant surprise, there were like a tons of food. You know what I like about Cameron Highlands? The environment there was cool. We barely sweat at all while eating steambot. I also bought some souvenirs back home too...There's strawberry tea, Rose Tea, Chocolate etc...
Overall, a nice trip. I want to visit there again, hopefully this time we stay over night, and get to visit all the places...
We used the old road, which according to the classmates, are more far in distance. We stopped at a waterfall in the middle of our journey. We took few pictures there. The water was really refreshing. Not to mention the slippery floor. I fell down as a result. Luckily my hp are ok...
Then we reached Cameraon Highland at around 5pm. It was late and most of the shops were closed. There goes our plan to visit the tea farm, strawberry farm and butterfly farm. We still managed to get us some strawberry ice cream though. It's delicious.
We had steambot for our dinner. For a RM13 per person price, I was expecting less food. To my pleasant surprise, there were like a tons of food. You know what I like about Cameron Highlands? The environment there was cool. We barely sweat at all while eating steambot. I also bought some souvenirs back home too...There's strawberry tea, Rose Tea, Chocolate etc...
Overall, a nice trip. I want to visit there again, hopefully this time we stay over night, and get to visit all the places...
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Coffee Island
Well, it was a rather uneventful trip back to Penag this time. I spent sleeping throughout Friday and Saturday. I was trying to enjoy myself before the exam, but felt rather headache this few days. At first wanted to find Vince for a movie or dinner or something, but too bad he's busy. Bought 2 comics again. Man, I always spent money when back here.
Luckily, Sunday was a better day. KKK is back in Penang and we went out for supper just now. I actually wanted to go to Star Bucks to try the Black Berry Frapuccino (or something like that). Too bad KKK has financial crisis. So we went to the Coffee Island in Gurney Drive instead. The coffe house has opened for quite some time but I haven't try it yet.
Overall, the atmosphere was pretty good. Outdoor coffee house, a lot of customers actually. And it seems there's indoor too, but not sure if it's open for all customer. The price of the food are quite reasonable. I ordered one Macademia Espresso for RM5.50, and some butter kaya bread (RM1.80 I think) and French Fries (RM5). Quite ok, the espresso tasted good enough. KKK said it was too bitter, but I think it was just nice, bitterness shows the bitterness of life afterall^^
We had few talks about life and stuffs and went driving around. Man, Penang sure is a nice place. Tons better than Kampar!!!
I'm going back tomorrow. And the exam is next week. After that I can finally go home!!! Just weeks to go!!!
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Sometimes It Rains In Heart
Thanks to the incident yesterday, I had a pretty bad sleeping experience last night. I woke up then and then to check on the window, getting paranoid...Stupid f*cker!!!
Miraculously, it doesn't rain tonight. How surprised I am. But unfortunately, apparently the rain pours inside my heart, instead onto this world.
I don't know when it happened. I don't know how I let it happened. I don't even know why it has to happen to me again. Why do I feel people are distancing from me the longer we know each other? How does everything change so fast? It's like few days ago we are talking a lot and doing stuffs and suddenly we are like strangers...
Maybe I did something wrong. Maybe I think too much as usual.
What if it's true? What if I push people away the more they know me? I'm really that annoying? That bad? Or am I just imagining things?
I wish I was back at KTAR times, where I can go home after school, instead of here. Then, I can avoid getting closer with others and getting hurt. At least in Penang, I still have some place to go to...I still can look at the sea, I can still buy my figures...I can let out all my sadness.
I feel empty now. Probably going to get a beer or something....see you soon
Miraculously, it doesn't rain tonight. How surprised I am. But unfortunately, apparently the rain pours inside my heart, instead onto this world.
I don't know when it happened. I don't know how I let it happened. I don't even know why it has to happen to me again. Why do I feel people are distancing from me the longer we know each other? How does everything change so fast? It's like few days ago we are talking a lot and doing stuffs and suddenly we are like strangers...
Maybe I did something wrong. Maybe I think too much as usual.
What if it's true? What if I push people away the more they know me? I'm really that annoying? That bad? Or am I just imagining things?
I wish I was back at KTAR times, where I can go home after school, instead of here. Then, I can avoid getting closer with others and getting hurt. At least in Penang, I still have some place to go to...I still can look at the sea, I can still buy my figures...I can let out all my sadness.
I feel empty now. Probably going to get a beer or something....see you soon
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